Oh, and it rains in your bedroom and everything is wrong

Once upon a time I believe it was a Thursday

When I caught your eye, we caught onto something

I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye

And show me you loved me, were you just kidding?

Cause it seems to me this thing is breaking down

We almost never speak, i don't feel welcome anymore

Baby what happened, please tell me

Cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare, at the phone he still, hasn't called

And you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at all

And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line? Did I say something way to honest?

Did you run and hide like a scared little boy?

I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute

Now I'm not so sure, so here's to everything

Coming down to nothing. Here's to silence

That cuts me to the core, Where is this going?

Thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymore

And I stare, at the phone he still, hasn't called

Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Did you mean it baby?I don't think so back up, baby back up

Did you forget everything? back up, baby back up

Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, and everything is wrong

RANDOM

YOUR BOYISH SIDE:
[ ] You love hoodies
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You love to play on an X-Box.
[ ] Played with Hot wheel cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You love to play on a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[ ] You used to be/are obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch/used to watch sports on TV
[x] Thriller movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to high school football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[ ] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[ ] You talk with food in you mouth .
[ ] Wear boxers
[ ] Cuts on my hands
[ ] Sleep with your socks on at night
Now add up the number
Total: 6
Now multiply by 5 to get percentage
30%

YOUR GIRLY SIDE:
[x] You wear lip gloss (at times)
[x] You love to shop.
[ ] You love to wear eyeliner.
[x] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[x] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[x ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in gymnastics.
[x] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and do your make-up
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You LOVE romantic movies.
[x] Used to play with dolls as a little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the enjoyment
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored
Total: 19
Now multiply by 5 to get percentage
95% * yes, feminine style is in

QUESTION OF THE MONTH

HOW TO MAKE-UP WITH EX BEST FRIEND

1. Pretend like nothing happened - Keke
2. Talk to him directly - Visca

1 -> this is the fastest and simplest way to us to be just as bestfriend again, but i'm not sure i can do this because he already cause me a really bad bad heartache. i'm really a hypocrite to pretend as if there's no betrayal like i'm the left-overs then how i badly cried and he still don't care.

2 -> this is a really direct way so i can tell him what i want us to be, and what should we do about it, maybe we could even discuss it so all the questions can be answered and the situation can be all-normal again. but the last time i tried, i couldn't even see his eyes it was like there's a hole in my chest.

SCHOOL LIFE

CURRENT STATE OF UNION

IN

Detention
feminine style
Partners in Crime
marriage

OUT

Rewards
so called boyish style
BFFs
crush (ed)

DIET AND FASHION TRIP

SWIMMING ----------------------> CHECK

EAT GOOD FOOD ----------------> CHECK

WATCH GOOD MOVIE-----------> CHECK

PHOTO SHOOT--------------------> CHECK

REAL TIME WITH FAMILY -----> CHECK

Long Days

Tanggal 4 April 2009 kemaren gue ikut OSN Biologi di SMA 82 bareng kak Amy, kak Salwa sama bu Yeni berangkat jam 7 dari Alpen naik taksi. Kita ruangannya dipisah pisah. Soal-nya ada 100 gapake LJK sih jadi disilang silang gitu. Materinya pelajaran kelas 11 dan 12 jadi gue agak bingung. Kita pulang naik busway (gue pertama kali looh) dari halte Alpus transit di Dukuh Atas terus turun di Warung Jati udah gitu gue sampe rumah sekitar jam 12 siang. Setelah itu adek gue mau pergi ke PIM ada acara ultah temennya jadi gue sama nyokap nganter dia dulu ke rumah temennya abis itu kita ke Plaza Kalibata beli kado buat temennya si adek. Abis itu gue diajak nyokap i'tikaf di Masjid Sunda Kelapa buat gue tobat sampe besok paginya baru pulang. Siangnya tanggal 5 April 2009 Chitra (sodara gue) dateng kita makan Bakmi GM dan bb ing ngobrol gajelas segala macem dan we're planning to have a Diet and Fashion Trip at April 10th - 12th 2009 in Hotel Borobudur. Ouh can't wait! xoxo

The Great Escape

Okay let's spill some dirt in this blog. This is my biggest mistake ever and change almost everything. School life, Family life, even my L life. It started out a week ago, Tuesday, 3/24/2009. We are planning to ditching school. It's all been set and we're going to Citos. Everything was working perfectly until i found out my mom going to my school on that day. My mom finds out and got really MAD. She said from tomorrow i'm not going to school anymore. My uniforms and my books are all packed.

Yes, i'm dying that day and fyi i'm not having fun at Citos when i found out M go after us. On that time i was really pissed. I risked my future to get closer to him by doing this escape and then that M just go and met him without any extra-work like moi. And then after we are all got caught out--let's say it's all because of me, he's really over me and then hitting up that M.

And on Saturday i got my report card from school and my score are all below the standards. Luckily my mom got over it quickly so we are cool now. And as the punishment from the school, we have to write hundreds of sentences that saying "I declare i'm guilty of ditching school and fooling teachers and parents". And we also have to make a speech in front of all students after Zhuhur prayings. All of my friends also get punishment from their parents and they are blaming me. One after one forgive me and then get over it but this H still really pissed and didn't want to talk to me. He keeps calling me Backstabber. So i'm just saying ;

H, i'm so sorry, i didn't mean to backstabbing anyone. I didn't want everything ended up like this, I'm so sorry it's all beyond my ability.

And mom, i'm sorry.. i'll never do this again, ever.
I love you mom.

I really don't want to have any enemy on my life. That's why i keep trying to do good things no matter what other people say. And i'm really grateful for my real friends who keep supporting me on my back.
Love you friends :)